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*takes moment*

I’ve been single for a little while now and I don’t really know how I feel, but it comes in waves. It’s nothing to do with being single, just the fact that I’m no longer with *that* person and the situation in which all of that came about. Being cheated on, dumped, whatever, is shit. There’s not much else. You’ve trusted someone and you’re left without that trust. That’s bad. I still respect the times I had with that person, but it doesn’t take the fact that I grew to love and care for someone and it was cut short.

The entire situation is bizarre for several reasons. Partially because I’m just so BUSY with stuff, so don’t have much time to absorb or reflect, and partially because how busy I was, and how that was impacting on our relationship is actually why it all ended. Basically, I’m left questioning something that I thought was going well. It all kind of throws you a bit.

By coming to terms with things, I’ve realised a lot about myself and the reality of my future. Without trying to sound really negative, I’m going to spend my life being able to have complete trust only *really* in myself, which is something I just have to deal with. I’ve felt a surge of independence because of this, as I’m getting older now and I’m realising that this isn’t necessarily a *bad* thing, because independence and space is great. I guess I’m just enjoying the space.

The book explores some really interesting things and does it brilliantly within a young adult novel. The film has the potential to be just as brilliant, of course, but it also has the potential to be fucked up and turned into something it’s not, just to supposedly attract the YA audience. It doesn’t NEED to, though, which is why it’s frustrating. Young adults are capable of exploring and thinking about themes that are within THG, so concentrating on some kind of love triangle more than the actual games would destroy the book and how the complex things it looks at have engaged young adults. Let’s not patronise what people are capable of understanding, and let’s not remove what makes it what it is.

When I think of the film and its release, I don’t feel particularly excited. Intrigued, maybe, but not excited. The trailer looks promising, yes, but the hype and the way it’s been promoted is annoying the hell out of me. I never liked the Twilight books or films, and trying to sell THG as something like that is just… Fucking annoying. That’s not what it is. Maybe I’m being protective, yes, but I’m annoyed because it seems to imply that young adults need some bizarre romance that twilight is to attract us to read, watch films, etc. That that’s that. We don’t. THG books have had their success without being sold as that, so we don’t need that now.

So I’ll see the film when it comes out, but if it has become what I expected, I’ll be really disappointed. Great, that’ll encourage people to read the books, but they’ll now be reading it with a potentially clouded judgement, taking away the brilliance of the books. The actors involved are interesting/v talented, too, but it’ll spin them into this. Even if the film turns out to be great, the way it’s been promoted has been done quite badly, I think, or at least with the wrong angle. The entire thing is frustrating.
~~~fRuSTraTIon—~~_

Where the fuck is Tilda Swinton’s Oscar nomination for We need to talk about Kevin? Oh Jesus, it’s actually annoyed me. Yep. The more I think about the film, the more it frustrates me. The fact that the film didn’t get nominated for more things this award season is absolutely outrageous, isn’t it? One of the most thought-provoking, powerful films I’ve ever seen. Absolutely extraordinary.

Seriously, what. The.